Trying to understand what you feel when you lose relatives close to you at very young age is a hard task. The memories you have, are hidden away to protect them from being lost, but in turn, it protects them from being remembered.
You’re told they adored you. You’re told all about how you used to sit on their knee at the dinner table when they ate their favourite meal. You’re told how you used to steal food from their plate. This story becomes a memory for you, something that makes you smile whenever you have that familiar meal.
The older you get, the further from your loved ones you feel and the absence of them in your life impacts your everyday. You notice the little things. How your love for reading is directly influenced by those nights spent as your Nana reads to you and how a certain smell brings you back to a more innocent time.